Of course, Kai faced many challenges on his path to fame. The first obstacle he encountered in musicals was prejudice. While his vocal background posed no technical challenges, many viewed him as just a “former vocal performer.”
“I enjoyed learning and improving, but people made assumptions about me. They’d say I didn’t have the right vocal techniques for musicals because I majored in voice or that acting must be harder for me,” Kai said.
Determined to prove his studies didn’t limit him, Kai even mimicked others to cover perceived weaknesses. “There was much nastiness back then,” he recalls. Now, with more acting experience, he’s less concerned with others’ opinions and more focused on capturing the essence of the musical and fulfilling his duties as an actor.
The biggest factor behind that shift was the musical “Ben-Hur.” Kai played Judah Ben-Hur, the main character of the musical, who spends 17 years in slavery on a Roman galley. “I wanted to become Ben-Hur the slave. I constantly thought about his emotions. In an attempt to get as close to the character as possible, I lost weight until my trainer told me to stop. Plus, director Wang Yong-bum placed his complete trust in me during that production. That made it possible to free myself from the bonds of rules and regulations.”
That was a period of immense growth for Kai. He was learning to balance expressing himself with preserving the musical’s message. He explored how to embody his character fully, sometimes sharing ideas with producers. “While rehearsing, I convinced myself I was the character. But thorny questions arise. Should I adjust my acting to make the performance more appealing to the audience? Or should I avoid that because it might undermine the musical’s essence? There’s no right answer. But I know for sure that I have to follow the course that feels right to me,” he said.
There’s a phrase Kai uses to describe fully embodying a character that only he can portray on stage. He describes that as “being myself.” On stage, he does his best to express all his thoughts and discoveries about the character. That’s how he narrows the distance between his character and himself while putting on an inimitable acting performance. Despite his teachings, Kai says he’s still scared of “being myself” on stage because his judgment is sometimes wrong or misguided. Kai is always trying out new things with the hope of overcoming that fear. “I’d like to try my hand at theater. Plays and musicals are essentially the same, but since drama is on a smaller stage, you basically have to lay everything bare before the audience. In a sense, that forces you to push yourself to the limit,” he said.
Kai performs as the lead character in ‘Phantom.’